Wednesday, October 1, 2003
Co-Heirs with Christ
The Spirit himself and our spirit bear united witness
that we are children of God.
And if we are children we are heirs as well;
heirs of God and coheirs with Christ,
sharing his sufferings so as to share in his glory.
We know that as children of God, we are expected to live a life according to the gospel of the Lord. This means that we have to live in righteousness AND holiness. But it is rarely taught on what it means to be a child of God?
As a child of God, we have the same rights as Jesus did. We can seek an audience with him. We can call him 'Abba, Father'. We are entitled to what the Father gave to Jesus.
He did not keep anything from his Son. As such, the Father also gives us everything through Jesus.
What does all this mean?
As a child of God, we are entitled to receive help from our Heavenly Father when we need it. As a child of God, he has to listen to us. Most importantly, as St. Faustina said in her diary, the sinner has the “right” to the Mercy of God. The greater the sinner, the greater is the right to the Mercy of God.
The past year was very hard for my family. There were times that my prayer was so dry that I felt that the Lord has abandoned me. And this scared me more than anything else: that God has abandoned me and is punishing me for making the wrong decision. I felt so helpless and hopeless.
Even the repeated assurance of my confessor was no help. But because this came from his lips, I had to take it in faith that the Lord was speaking through him.
I was probably at the darkest night of my prayer life that I had two realizations. First, God was not punishing me for making a wrong decision. I have confessed my sins and so he has forgiven me. This was not a punishment.
Second was that God is faithful. And because he promised it, he will do it. He said that he hears our prayers. He said that he knows his plans for us. He said that he will provide for our needs. So even if I do not feel him, even if I felt that he has abandoned me, in truth, he has NOT abandoned me. Because he promised that he will NEVER leave us nor forsake us.
I had to repeatedly force myself to believe in these facts. Once I believed, the darkness lifted and indeed, the Lord finally answered our prayers.
One thing I learned from this darkness is that what scares me most was not losing money but it was losing God. Because if we lose money, God can give it back. But if I lose God, then I lose my life.
God be glorified in our lives